Sometimes it just hits me square in the chest how much I love my little girl. Today it was as she nursed and laid there gazing up at me with her huge, dark eyes, and I sat watching her. Her eyes closed, slowly, and she drifted into sleep, still sucking now and then; when she released the latch, her lips were bright pink and still pursed, slightly parted, and it was all I could do not to lean down and smooch them, so I brushed her hair back from her ear instead… and she smiled.
Moments like that are so precious.
I made the decision to start pumping… sometime soon. Not that I want to switch to bottle-feeding exclusively, but Chris would like to be able to feed her (as would I), and I’d like to feel as though we can leave her with family for a few hours without worrying about a feeding crisis. Also, since we’re going to be travelling to Connecticut in the summer, being able to bottle feed may let us avoid some crying fits between rest stations.
I love the idea of my girl lying in my family’s arms, feeding from the bottle, giving them that same bright-eyed, adoring look that I am so blessed to receive daily.
And then they might just be privileged enough to receive the ear-piercing scream she gives off just when you think she’s actually going to sleep this time. HAH!
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That is so sweet.
I love when I’m nursing Lily and I think she’s asleep and I look down to see a big bright eye gazing at me.
I know you didn’t ask for it but I would suggest the bottle called Breast flow. It is suppose to very closely resemble breastfeeding so the don’t get nipple confusion. It’s what we use.
That’s actually what I am interested in, but I am not sure they sell in Canada. I have checked some websites that say they are, but others disagree :\ need to call babies r us tomorrow!
That really is a wonderful feeling. Part of why I am resisting giving it up. Sigh.
I got our Breast Flow at Target, you might try their site, If nothing else I’ll pick up some and mail them to you. Just let me know.
I have the Born Free widemouth and love them. Good idea to start soon with the bottle – my best friend just spent 5 months trying to get her LO to take it because she waited too long. She’s never been able to enjoy a night out or even a dinner longer than 2 hours – for close to 6 months now. She’s tried everything. . . I was forced to start mine on a bottle (she was in the NICU for 3 days right after she was born) and am so glad we did – she had no problem going back and forth since.